Where it seemed everything was just BAD!!
Lets see I won't say a whole lot on this subject BUT I have people who are un-married and child-less telling me that I am basically a BAD mother, you know I don't feed my kids etc... Now if that was the case I can imagine my kids would be horribly under weight, sickly, and tiny. and they are NONE of these things. Heck I haven't even had them to the doctor this shcool year for illness. That is AWESOME!! But you know I am a bad mother... I hate it I am tired of it, but what can I do? Nothing like always, all the comments and remarks, people think I will not hear them. Whatever... My friends helped me alot this week I wasn't in the best of moods and spent alot of time in tears. I am so tired of hearing the non parents tell me my sons issues are just an excuse, spend a day with him, a bad day, the days he mis-behaves and cries because he don't fully understand why he does some of the things he does, its heart breaking and being a young child you can't fake that stuff. Even his threapists agree that its not something to be ignored, it needs fixed now. That is why i am going through all this stuff. I am angry, I am hurt, i am upset. There are some people in my life who I thought I was very close to only to find out what I already knew, they are all for themselves, they know it all, I do not matter anymore, I was only good when I did and gave them things, live and learn I guess...
Wednesday I had Nathaniels 3 month evaluation and I had paper work to fill out for him going to the summer treatment program (summer camp) I put money in the meter I had to scour the Envoy for change because i had non in my purse ohhh well we found some but it wasnt enough I got a parking ticket... WONDERFUL it was only $3 but still I wasnt happy but then laughed it was kind of funny I guess. I have been tatting off and on this week there were days when i touched it and it just went all wrong...
Tomorrow is FRIDAY woo hoo!!! I cant wait to spend the 3 day weekend with David and the kids. and tomorrow Debbie and I are going craft shopping :) i cant wait. I need to decompress and just chat. I am so glad to have met her she is awesome finally I have a normal friend and she loves tatting too :0)
The kids get out of school on June 8 I cant wait I need things to slow down a bit. On June 14th Nate starts camp, he likes it and it will do him good.
If i do not make it back before Memorial Day, Have a safe and wonderful holiday.